SS Phase Two: Emerging Self
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We process a therapy session in which we realized we didn’t have to be fawning anymore - and how dysregulating it was not to be fawning.
We share updates, life changes, and big ideas!
We talk to our friend from college about our first diagnosis of DID and about religious trauma.
While not going into depth of details, this episode discusses the dynamic of religious trauma explicitly and directly. We share with the husband about receiving a message from a college friend who found the podcast. We use what she shared and what we have done in therapy thus far to piece together part of a timeline… and grieve its implications.
We discuss with the husband our experience of being notified that our biological family has found the podcast and the book.
We discuss with the husband our experience of being notified that our biological family has found the podcast and the book.
We offer The Community recap of the Healing Together Conference.
We try to give an update, share about what we are learning, and process disappointment about not getting to go to Florida for Healing Together - or have our respite from parenting.
We share how therapy is going, and process letting go of our previous Kelly and trusting the new one - and ourselves.
We watched the movie “Encanto” together in group, then discussed it through a DID framework.
We share listener emails and a discussion about what makes a good therapist.
We got our new cochlear implants processors!
This week, our son was life flighted, and we got a postcard from our previous therapist on the way out the door. We share how we processed this, and how we hold all those layers moving forward. We explore starting to re-engage in therapy again, letting these pieces go and refocusing on our healing.
We met our new therapist. And I tell you about that. Because I can’t find my buddy therapist.
We talk with the husband about grieving those experiences we just can’t do anything about, how to learn from them, and what it’s like to let go and move on.
We share the exhaustion that comes from overwhelm and ongoing frustration as we re-enter life after quarantine.
We take a moment on Thanksgiving try to process the transition out of quarantine and back into the world around us.
We share our experience of meeting with a registered dietician.
We share about our move, and process what we learned here during the pandemic.
We process our week away at the cabin, and share our experience stopping at our father’s cemetery on the way home.
We tell the story of a hawk attacking one of our baby chicks, and then we share how our therapist tended that story like she does our dreams.
It’s the Husband’s turn to plan date night, which finally happens via Zoom, and he’s got some kind of personality design thing to share - and our results came out as “more than one internal voice, a multi-people”.
We share a therapy update. This includes references to past therapy traumas (in a list, not in depth), and new connections to the body.
We tell the story of accidentally texting our new therapist.
We try to focus on our new therapist, staying present to acknowledge how much the last two years hurt, but also preparing for the transition to a new therapist. We explore a bit of “both-and” and we learned in therapy. We connect to a story that helps support our effort at reclaiming ourselves.
Emma introduces herself and shares about her transition from System Speak to Emerging Self.